Tag: honesty

Why do you trust me, Father?

Father,

Why do you trust me?

I have abandoned you so many times

And I can’t promise I won’t do it again

No matter how hard I try

I tend to fail again

As I have always let you down, Father.

How can you still trust me, Father?

I used to be so vain

And I am up until these days

I would have abandoned myself

If you hadn’t stayed with me.

You truly love me

At least the pure things inside

Those what mostly hidden from me.

You understand my potential for goodnes

That I can be great on Your side.

Father, Your love is

What elevates me

What makes me better

And a different person.

 

Thank You, Father,

Thank You!

 

 

Joshua Dragon

I’ve been lost, Father!

I’ve been lost, Father,

You were who found me

When I would roam around

Carelessly, as I child

 

You found me again, Father,

When I was wandering

In the deserts of vanity

Forgetting my responsibility

 

And You found me again and again, Father,

When I couldn’t bear more

As I was tried to grow faster

To become Your true child

 

I’ve been lost, Father,

It was me, who lost myself

But You were ceaselessly there

Waiting for me to be like you.

 

I don’t want to be lost again, Father,

I just wish to stay with You

I hope one day You’ll find a place

In my heart and You’ll stay

 

For ever

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Prayer for the daughter who confessed she wasn’t praying enough

Dear Heavenly Father,

 

I’m praying for the daughter who has just confessed

and shared her heart

as she felt she wasn’t praying enough.

As she said, she skipped a few times to greet You arriving home

and she remembered she used to pray more before eating.

This was her second confession when she opened up in tears

just after the evening, just after closing the day.

Father, her heart is so pure,

You know it well, this is her 10th spring on Earth,

and she is deeply suffering about doing it wrong,

not to talk to You all the time.

Father, please, help this young soul to feel,

You are more about deeds than mandatory dogmas,

You are more about attendance and right examples

than any words could say!

I told to this daughter, daughter of Yours,

You are a parent

who lives by examples

and cares beyond what is given to You

since You have no expectations

when you give out of love.

Dear Father,

I’m praying for this little daughter of mine,

who herself is Heaven,

to feel enough confidence

and patience.

Youth is about learning and growing.

Please, Father, comfort her heart and feelings,

and assure her, this is the right time to grow,

to learn form the mistakes

and co-create her life!

Father, she is the greatest treasure and

she has the ultimate,

You know it, Father, I’m sure,

since You’ve lived Your life with hers together

since the moment she was born.

Embrace this little greatness, Father,

the hope of our future!

 

Thank You, Father,

thank You!

 

 

 

Joshua Dragon

My old self couldn’t find You, Father!

My old self couldn’t find You, Father!

If there is anyone who knows it

it must be You.

 

You called me as Your child, Father,

by now I know I would misbehave

despite all the signs and hints.

 

Would You forgive me, Father,

if I told You a promise

once more, again?

 

I’m not sure if I could endure, Father,

to see a beloved one to go astray,

I feel I wouldn’t be able to bear the pain.

 

I can’t imagine just wonder, Father,

how You were able to survive

to see me fail.

 

I’ve been praying with a closed mouth, Father,

because I feel the weight,

Now I’m trying more than ever

to bring You joy beyond the grief!

 

 

 

Joshua Dragon

My Broken Heart is Nothing Compared to Yours, Father!

My broken heart is nothing compared to Yours, Father!

Walking halfway in the Sunset Avenue of this life

Where happiness seems to be barren just like the barks of the trees

Where the light is present but can not warm that much any more

As memories are fading and the void is getting stronger

As the mind of brilliance is becoming more normal

As all the deeds are recategorized by self-doubts

And I feel the era of joy and abundant love

Will never greet me again

And the anger is growing and visible

Towards those who are acting against Your love

People, just like me

Father,

The pain is excruciating

But the numbness is death

I can feel my own pitiness

I wonder how You can still trust me

I wonder how you can still bear the pain of agony.

Your hope in us

Your hope in me

Must be greater

than this agony.

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Prayer for the ones behind walls

Dear Father,

 

You never judge anyone and you have never judged me.

 

Only the immature judges as the unloved hates.

There are so many behind walls these days.

Even the holy places are locked down for most of the times.

These fortresses are not structures of the heart.

 

I know, it has always been like this, but I’ve thought and in a way expected we would all get rid of the misunderstandings, rage and enmity by now.

People in need and lack of real opportunities, to whom nobody taught a different practical standard other than their own, they are all forced to leave anything they can love behind. Sometimes for all in their lives.

 

What is the purpose of this, Father?

It is not just the story of Jean Valjean, when goodness can overcome fear!

I’ve opened my heart and door to anyone who comes and asks.

 

We are the same prisoners behind walls just we have temporary keys to calm our uneasiness.

And we still believe anything can be really ours?

 

The greatest thieves are not behind the bars, since they are not the decision-makers who have stolen the future from our children by destroying the world which was not earned by any but given by You!

 

There are accidents and families, where love was not taught and could have never been present and yes, there are consequences and indemnity. But Father, I’m praying for those, too, since they had a life earlier than the Old Testament. Why anybody is pretending eye to eye is still valid then? Shouldn’t we teach moral and compassion instead? Taking away the freedom is the same as killing, it kills a person’s soul, Father, I’m praying for the incarcerated ones, too! They need to be able to restore their soul to realize how to restore and atone all the things what were caused by them.

 

A dead man won’t be expected to do anything else from a zombie, Father!

A living, conscious, compassionate, caring soul can rejuvenate a person’s heart and mind and through that they can start the road of redemption.

 

Father, you never judge but always forgives!

How come that we always judge but never forgive?

 

I sincerely pray for these people, behind the not-chosen-walls, to meet You Father and understand Your true inner nature and to realize each and every one of us are meant to be like You!

 

I pray for them to be as real as You are, Father, and have a heart with no walls inside!

 

Thank you, Father!

Thank You!

 

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Prayer for the Giant on the bus who was like a mountain but his eyes tame and clear

Father,

 

I’ve been meaning to tell you, how unprepared and vain I was two days ago. I was sick and barely could speak but that is never an excuse, since You chose me and you never let me down in anything I should not others, either.

 

There was a man on the bus to where we usually never travel. Honestly, I was unable to like him, he was fearful, big, tattooed and dressed as a biker, smoking in the stop, having a grim look and sunglasses.

I didn’t find the place in myself to open my heart unconditionally, I was even accusing him inside why he was travelling that way.

Then, in the crowded coach a young mother offered seat for me and my baby boy, as I recognized she was the only one with a specific ethnic background, yet, she had only the heart of Yours, even helping me with my sleeping toddler, while being nice with her little bit older daughter.

Again Father, I felt so good, since all in my life just people with different backgrounds were unconditionally nice, kind, loving and caring towards me, never the “white ones” – though I’m sure many of them were.

So, Father, imagine, suddenly I felt somebody was tapping my shoulder. As I looked behind my left shoulder, across the aisle there was him, the Giant, the Mountain, smiling at me, showing the sign of the rockers, saying he would have a friend like me.

His voice was loud and clunking, yet clear and well, Father, he was pure. During the next ten miles he was sharing how he would not live long enough to pay back all the goodness he had been given although he had been trying to help children in his work.

Father, I really wanted to talk and share with this young man, whose face showed the story of his life. Yet, I was unable, and I was daydreaming about having a real conversation in the Nature…

I said “Hold on!” to him before he got off, by then others had had the angry face maybe because he seemed to be drunk – I didn’t have that concept. The Giant who looked like a mountain was not wearing his sunglasses any more, he was just unsuccessfully trying to hold back his tears. We waved to each other as friends and I started to pray for him and the young lady with the child next to me.

 

This is what I’m doing now, Father, again, please give them Your Blessings!

Let them have a long and healthy, content and prosperous, joyful life!

 

And give, give this man whose life was more than difficult and heavy another chance to meet You through a true representative who will teach him how to connect and grow for good.

 

Thank you, Father!

Thank you!

 

 

Joshua Dragon