Dear Father,
This is again a letter to You, although, You can read my heart easily, I also would like to express my desire to re-connect, to be one again with You.
I’m sure, You remember, there were times, when we, You and I spent meaningful and valuable hours together. I wish to say there were days but it wouldn’t be true. I was never able to give You shelter in my heart even for 24 hours. I just so easily can sink back to my routines, my vain old self – though I always feel I could finally shake that off for good, for ever…
I’m longing for the times to be together with You, Father, not just what we had, but what is yet to come. I’m sure, the best is yet to come…
I might not have as many years here on Earth as many once I had, still, I want with all of my cells to live at least one day with complete unity with You, Heavenly Father!
That would be the utmost, the crown of my life’s achievements.
Yet, I don’t know how. If I had known, I would have done it, If I had been able to rule myself with the same love as You love me, I could have done it.
I am sorry, Father, as I have always been sorrowing it, You handled me the keys for the salvation and I put them on a table and I just tended to look elsewhere, reasoning with life, work, challenges, tribulations and the list goes on…
You have never needed to excuse Yourself, Father, since You have dedicated Your life to get us back together, each and every one of us. You already know, the best is yet to come…
As I grow older, and I wish to say wiser or at least less immature, I do feel it, too: the best is yet to come.
I might not have all the strength once I used to roam in the world, but You helped me to see: all the tribulations, sorrows and griefs were to make me more like You, to form my heart similar to Yours.
As You know, Father, every so often, I can’t say a word, barely could think of talking to You and it is because of my shame, and it’s overwhelming.
I know, You will never accuse me of my wrongdoings, still, I have said all the words and I have broken all the promises – I just don’t want to empty You, again with this, Father…
But the best is yet to come, Father!
I do feel it in my bones, in my bone marrow.
All the teachings and persevering love You have been pouring onto me were not in vain!
I know, one day soon, I will be worthy for Your love and You’ll be able to call me as You true son!
Just hold on, Father, just hold on!
It is not an empty promise, it is a fact: one day soon, we can be one again for once and for good!
Dear Father, please, be patient with me and have Your enduring love while I’m on my way home to You!
Thank You, Father, thank You!
Your son,
Joshua Dragon